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Sunday, June 15th, 2008
2:52 pm
We were talking - about the space between us all
And the people - who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion
Never glimpse the truth - then it's far too late when they pass away

We were talking - about the love we all could share
When we find it - to try our best to hold it there - with our love
With our love we could save the world - if they only knew

Try to realize it's all within yourself - no-one else can make you change
And to see you're really only very small
And life flows on within you and without you.

We were talking - about the love that's gone so cold
And the people who gain the world and lose their soul
They don't know, they can't see - are you one of them?

When you've seen beyond yourself
Then you may find peace of mind is waiting there
And the time will come when you see we're all one
And life flows on within you and without you.

current music: fleet foxes | ragged wood / cloudland canyon | white woman

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Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
3:07 pm - synchrosection

strangely dense synchronode..  the crystal antlers ep - cover is one of my favorite paintings by one of my favorite painters (went to the peggy guggenheim last year to see it and then pere lachaise to visit ernst's grave), as well as an almost comical intersection of all the music and art trends I've been tracking for the last few years, like some kind of weird list - lofi-shoegaze-psych-rock with themes of owls, deers, crystals, eyes (the evolving underground art demigod pantheon).. a song called "parting song for the torn sky" - my new tattoo being hexagram 43, kuai - "parting" and my old one hexagram 23, bo - "stripping/tearing".. another called  "arcturus" - our suspected source of the qac transmission in analogy to leary/wilson's sirius..  they sound pretty cool too.. no age meets m83 style dense noisiness, mgmt/panda bear neo tribal psych..

current mood: attirement of the bride

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Wednesday, June 4th, 2008
12:31 pm - anosognosia
saw will wright talk about building entertainment franchises and imaginary worlds.. he referenced the three stigmata of palmer eldritch, talked about walt disney's crazy unfinished plans for disney world, showed a funny clip of david lynch talking about experiencing a movie over a telephone.

I was then explaining to someone the difference between CanD and ChewZ.. which lead to a web search.. where I found this interesting site:

http://www.christianhubert.com/writings/index.htm

"You can never know what is enough unless you know what is more than enough." William Blake, "Proverbs of Hell."

consensual hallucination, phase space, screen memories, schismogenesis, heterotopia.. your typical hypertext synchronmaschine.

My primary interest is in the constellation of ideas and  technologies, in the dense web of interlinkages between terms, in  resonances between ideas from different fields. Hypertext is the writing form which best approximates this field, and when hypertext meets the internet, in the World-Wide-Web, for example, this new  discursive technology promises to symbolise the embodiment of our new thought-worlds the way the  clock, the book, the  railway, or other prime  artifacts of Western technology operated upon their own time,  coevolving in  feedback with the technical and social matrices that gave rise to them.

current mood: anthropic principle
current music: subtle | exitingARM

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Sunday, June 1st, 2008
7:13 pm
Time will destroy you like a Mexican god.

current mood: ice cave
current music: human bell

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Monday, May 19th, 2008
4:40 pm - mysterium tremendum
Numinous is a Latin term coined by German theologian Rudolf Otto to describe that which is wholly other. The numinous is the mysterium tremendum et fascinans that leads in different cases to belief in deities, the supernatural, the sacred, the holy, and the transcendent.

The word was used by Otto in his book Das Heilige (1917; translated as The Idea of the Holy, 1923). Etymologically, it comes from the Latin word numen, which originally and literally meant "nodding", but was associated with meanings of "command" or "divine majesty". Otto formed the word numinous from numen in a manner analogous to the derivation of ominous from omen.

current mood: land of laughs
current music: js bach - prelude in c minor

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Sunday, May 11th, 2008
2:45 am - chiastic slide
J.C. Lavatar in the 18th century said it was the shadow of the face, not the face itself that was the soul’s true reflection; the ancient Egyptians held that there are nine parts to the human personality: Ren (the name), Seknem (the form in heaven), Saho (the spiritual body), Khu (the ethereal casing of the physical body), Khat (the physical body), Ka (the doppelganger of the body which empowers the shadow), Ab (the heart), Ba (the soul in the Ka), and Khaibit (the shadow of the physical body enlivened by the Ka);
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If there exists the means by which consciousness can overcome the limitations of the inertial mass of the physical body and enter “higher dimensions” than the mind, it must also be possible to enter the “lower dimensions,” such as the second dimension of spatiality (a dimensional realm obvious to all) and become a living shadow. This was one of the beliefs of the Ancient Egyptians, and so should be the content of an objective experiment that could test such a hypothesis.
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Friday, May 9th, 2008
12:31 am - folie à deux
Folie à deux (literally, "a madness shared by two") is a rare psychiatric syndrome in which a symptom of psychosis (particularly a paranoid or delusional belief) is transmitted from one individual to another. The same syndrome shared by more than two people may be called folie à trois, folie à quatre, folie à famille or even folie à plusieurs (madness of many).
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Folie à deux and its more populous cousins are in many ways a psychiatric curiosity. The current Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders states that a person cannot be diagnosed as being delusional if the belief in question is one "ordinarily accepted by other members of the person's culture or subculture" (see entry for delusion). It is not clear at what point a belief considered to be delusional escapes from the folie à... diagnostic category and becomes legitimate because of the number of people holding it. When a large number of people may come to believe obviously false and potentially distressing things based purely on hearsay, these beliefs are not considered to be clinical delusions by the psychiatric profession and are labelled instead as mass hysteria.
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There have been reports that a similar phenomenon to folie à deux had been induced by the military incapacitating agent BZ in the late 60s, and most recently again by anthropologists in the South American rainforest consuming the hallucinogen ayahuasca.
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Tuesday, April 1st, 2008
1:52 pm - Catalogue Raisonne
kent gallery has indeed gone ahead with the creation of a catalogue of laffoley's complete works, in 3 volumes. and it's online. fairly small scans but with commentary by paul on each.

http://www.kentgallery.com/LaffoleyCatalogueindex.htm

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Monday, March 31st, 2008
12:15 am - ænergetics
was studying laffoley's metatron in more detail thanks to large scan posted by miqel... noticed the term 'anergetic angel' in the subtitle. i've encountered laffoley's terms katoenergy and metaenergy, he explains these in phenomenology of revelation - kato being the regular energy of physics and meta being energy which is 'efficacious without motion' and a generalization of the spiritual energies known in various wisdom traditions as chi, prana, elan vital, holy spirit, orgone etc. wasn't familiar with 'anergy' but reminded me of metaenergy.. a search revealed very little except this intriguing post on the noetic institute's page.

At the Quantum level, as the energy flow progresses from the non materialized state, through our material physics it is projected into a myriad of patterns or varying field effects. These super sub-atomic particle/wave event plains, create the space/matter relationships that we know as our 3D Reality. Everything that falls above a certain size or matter energy relationship(Plancks constant) is real in a 3 Dimensional sense. Everything that is below this size is non-real, or invisible. This non-real energetic phase of Intelligent Awareness is known and described as the Spirit, or Angelic State, or Exalted, Enlightened, Eternal...etc. All of these are correctly describing properties of our shared field effect as it exists in a super sub-atomic, or Anergetic* form.
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*The concept that the Big-Bang, or the Moment of Creation(let there be Light)was the Hyper-expansion of a Super Symmetrical Singularity, and that this event resulted in an extremely high energy envelope filled with a non-materialized form of energy called Anergy was first presented by David R Varner in 1985.

knowing laffoley it's probably indeed a reference to this obscure varner guy.. want to know more.  basically tripped by the fact that it's a new a-e pair (and similar in spirit to the primary dual of afflux and efflux), and I feel a kind of spontaneous affinity with the idea of a 'non-materialized' form of energy lurking below planck's constant... is it the positively charged void? the priestess, the dark mother night? the implicate order, galactic memory, morphic field, world of forms... the raumgeist...

tohu va bohu

current mood: the space between the notes
current music: stars of the lid - a meaningful moment through a meaning(less) process

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Saturday, March 29th, 2008
9:18 pm - the parallax view
I am the destroyer, I am the angel of death
My head is filled with fire, I hear the voices of the dead
I watched my angry father turnin' circles in the ground
I saw the great devourer, yeah he cut my father down

Well I could've been a sailor, layed my life down for the queen
But when the ocean took my brother, it put a curse on everything
So I ran to the feet of Jesus, he said "where the hell you been boy?"
I've been to the top of the highest mountain, I've been to the bottom of the sea

current music: Hell-O)))-ween

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Monday, March 24th, 2008
1:59 am - ØØ void
3 weeks 3 weeks 3 weeks 3 years
I started painting tonight, put that tape in and droned
soaked the canvas in words, received the light like communion
preyed on the wildlife energy of youth like a carnivorous tree
he is risen indeed
I'm loose, lost, spinning, winning
I'm printing in the infernal method
back bent, caffeinated, a coffin crashing in slow motion
tethered to the polestar

current mood: life lessons
current music: the bees made honey in the lion's skull

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Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
8:23 am - nothing is real
Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see
It's getting hard to be someone but it all works out
It doesn't matter much to me
No one I think is in my tree, I mean it must be high or low
That is you can't you know tune in but it's all right
That is I think it's not too bad
Always no sometimes think it's me, but you know I know when it's a dream
I think I know I mean a yes but it's all wrong
That is I think I disagree

current mood: amorphic fields forever

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Monday, March 17th, 2008
6:28 pm - oh oh, uncle truck is back
A think tank of aloof multiplication
A nicotine wish and a Columbus decanter
Retrenchment and hoggishness
The aristocrat choir sings
'What's the ruckus?'
The haves have not a clue
The immenseness of suffering
And the odd negotiation, a rarity
With onionskin plausibility of life,...
And a keyboard reaffirmation

Blackout weaves its way through the cities...

current mood: lyra

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Saturday, March 15th, 2008
3:58 pm - the future is prisons and math
consciousness is something it's like to be something
consciousness is when there is something to be like
consciousness is subjective experience, "it's like being human"
"like being" is its quality
how do I know you're conscious?  why do I suspect you're conscious? is that machine conscious? 
I gain confidence in your consciousness by gathering evidence that your experience is like my experience by observing you and your reaction to things and communicating with you
I gain confidence in the machine's consciousness by gathering evidence that its experience is like my experience by observing it and its reaction to things and communicating with it
inwardness, awareness, feedback, metaperception, metaexperience, metathinking, metaprogramming
philosophy of mind, philosophy of language, natural language philosophy
you have consciousness when you have a feedback loop that can be identified with
the idea that consciousness, being, identity, "I" equals "pattern", a certain sequence of interrelations
a temporal-informational pattern in a feedback loop
from all sufficiently complex patterns arises an inwardness
spirit is to potential metaenergy as soul is to kinetic metaenergy
transmuting lead into gold, transmuting spirit into soul
consciousnesses have a soul, souls are conscious
a soul is a piece of wandering time
what's it like to be a bat?
if this "like" exists then bats are conscious
like, it, be, something, subjectivity.. examples demonstrating the misleading and ambiguous aspects of natural language can help work toward, zero in on, circle around understandings of philosophical truths
experience, intentionality, subjectivity, causality
qualia
"it seems unlikely that any physical theory of mind can be contemplated until more thought has been given to the general problem of subjective and objective."

current mood: verisimilous
current music: pearl jam - who you are

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Tuesday, March 4th, 2008
11:55 pm
hm. banks and oil.

the Forbes 2000

current mood:

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Wednesday, February 13th, 2008
11:43 pm - knostic prayer
jesus christ
jesus christ
you hang on high in the hanging sky
upon a cross that you expel
from your womb bright
from your bladder and your brain
like a silver tear from an ancient flood
of alien blood
that we must drink to bathe our compound face
oh jesus christ
jesu christus
a pure and polluted
you're a devil in a fable
a corpse at the banquet table
you're stuffed with the first fruits
of the quasi-evoluted
you cannot be refuted
you cannot be explained
and you cannot be worshipped
and you cannot be contained
you're a trail through the trackless
and a toil for the taskless
you're a carnivorous tree
a cyclopean star
you're a plesiosaur
a crested wave
and you destroy what you save
and you save it all again
establishing the end of our mental mind signs
oh jesus christian
on a magic mission
with your mammary glands
one at sea and one on land
you irrigate the ashes
you communicate in flashes
oh jesus christ
jesus christ

current mood: the mind is a hole in the body
current music: the body is a hole in the mind

(2 turquoise hexagon suns |creating permanent daylight)

Saturday, February 2nd, 2008
5:26 pm
The skull at the foot of the cross is my own.

current mood: elegiac
current music: mgmt - time to pretend

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Friday, December 7th, 2007
1:13 pm - immortal fangs with which to butcher the carcass of time
cause there's a pearl in your head
the head between your double head
it's flashing blue and red
hear it sing



and I am bound to my twin
by a strong psychic skin
you hear it whining in the wind
hear it sing



lord krishna on the cross, like a christ wreathed in flames
howling the vowels of your name, like wolves migrating through your veins
hear them sing



current music: new organs promised if we but cultivate their need

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Sunday, October 28th, 2007
11:50 pm
The hole I dig is bottomless but nothing else can set me free.

current music: shooting myself with rock and roll

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Wednesday, October 24th, 2007
2:23 pm - 'couver cowboys, london eyes
'The licensing of security guards, or lack thereof, has recently attracted the attention of Vancouver-based human-rights and civil-liberties groups. According to provincial statistics, there are 38 percent more licensed security guards than police officers in B.C. Terry Kennedy, communications director of the B.C. Human Rights Coalition, told the Straight that by 2008, the number of private security guards, both licensed and unlicensed, could outnumber police 5:1.
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Hern explained that when security cameras were installed all over London in the early part of this decade, crime went down in some areas but went up in others. Where crime went down, U.K. officials claimed that the security cameras were working and used this as justification to install more. In areas where crime went up, officials argued that there were not enough security cameras, which was the rationalization to increase their number. "So you're caught either way," Hern said. "It's an ideological argument…that is not particularly interested in invoking facts unless they happen to suit the argument."'
..article..

current music: panda bear - person pitch

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Thursday, October 18th, 2007
1:35 pm - onæirology
hmm, interesting LJ, a lucid dreamer: realityhandbook. Found by clicking on the æ in my interests list. Wanna look into this La Berge dude further.
I really enjoyed this post:

Luigi's study of Mario from inside the Nintendo

Imagine a person seated on a sofa playing Super Mario Brothers. Every move that Mario makes precisely correlates with a signal received on a Nintendo controller—because that's the way it works. Yet if Luigi were studying Mario from inside-the-game, it might be very difficult to "see" the person sitting on the couch who is playing, even with relatively advanced instrumentation.

As Luigi's tools come closer to the reality of the hardware, all of Mario's impulses would appear to originate from "the controller port". Phenomena like the delay patterns of fingers pushing would be discovered as cul-de-sacs and footnotes of "gamepad science".
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Analogously, the brain is clearly how our presence in the physical world using the "5 senses" is manifest. Just like you-as-Mario can't be animated in the Nintendo universe without a controller, you-as-Human can't be animated on Earth without a brain. But just because the brain can be analyzed to be a function of much of our thought doesn't mean this is the only place the thought is happening. It just means the brain is the bottleneck for our spirit to manifest itself.
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current music: jose gonzalez - how low

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Wednesday, October 17th, 2007
2:16 pm - metempsychosis



current mood: pataphysical
current music: brmc - 666 conducer

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Saturday, October 13th, 2007
3:14 pm - owl hex
tohu va bohu

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