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Wednesday, July 8th, 2009
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2:19 pm - This Morning (We Remembered Everything)
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the circulatory system forms in the 4th week of gestation.
current mood: New From The Heavenly Loom
current music: The Breathing Universe
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| Thursday, June 4th, 2009
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2:31 pm
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| Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
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11:28 am - the nostalgia of the infinite
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![[void]](http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/6/69/TheNostalgiaoftheInfinite.jpg)
lo scarabeo needs to make a de chirico deck.
inspired by this trailer..
current mood: XVI THE TØWER
current music: Et quid amabo nisi quod aenigma est?
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| Tuesday, May 19th, 2009
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11:30 am
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No longer, no longer
What you ask
Strange steps
Heels turn black
The cinders, the cinders
They light the path
And these strange steps
Take us back, take us back
Flow sweetly, hang heavy
You suddenly complete me
You suddenly complete me
No wonder, no wonder
Other half
Strange steps
Heels turn black
The cinders, they splinter
And light the path
And these strange steps
Trace us back, trace us back
Hysteric, hysteric
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| Thursday, April 30th, 2009
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5:22 pm - data
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| Wednesday, April 29th, 2009
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12:21 am
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how I wish you could see the potential
the potential of you and me
it's like a book elegantly bound but
in a language that you can't read, just yet
there are days when outside your window
I see my reflection as I slowly pass
and I long for this mirrored perspective
when we'll be lovers, lovers at last
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| Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
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10:10 pm - [Solid Blue Silence]
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The cold heavy fluid settled in a mountain village of slate houses where time stops—Blue twilight—Place Of The Silence Addicts—They just sit there in cool blocks of blue silence and the earth's crust undulates under their weight of Heavy Time and Heavy Money—Exploded time stops in blue metal—
"Empty picture of a haunted ruin?" He lifted his hands sadly turned them out ... "Some boy just wrote last goodbye across the sky ... All the dream people of past time are saying good-bye forever, Mister" Late afternoon shadows against his back magic of all movies in remembered kid standing there face luminous by the attic window in a lost street of brick chimneys exploded star between us ... You can look back along the slate shore to a white shirt flapping gunsmoke.
-uranian willy
current mood: wrecked
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9:53 pm - la divinazione
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I THE MÅGIÇIÅN. The search for truth must pass bøth through reason and through emotion.
3 of Chalices. The plateau. The means to uplift oneself lies in the emotions, bøth the positive ones and the negative ones.
XII THE HÅNGEÐ MÅN. Things are hidden behind other things. One must look bøth above and below to liberate oneself.
current mood: l'ombra
current music: yeah yeah yeahs - zerø
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| Tuesday, April 21st, 2009
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4:14 pm - the gap that separates the one from itself
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lacanian-zizekian psychoanalysis applied to the kabballistic-gnostic-taoic current. the little remainder, the symptom, is the only thing that's Real - the void and light aren't perfect opposites even though they're duals - this is what creates the vibrating atoms.
( symbolic analogs... )
current music: åcolytes øf ðaath
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| Sunday, April 19th, 2009
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1:41 am
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current music: uffie - steroids
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| Thursday, April 9th, 2009
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9:50 am
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"'Reality' is a fantasy-construction which enables us to mask the Real of our desire."
I'm fascinated by this idea that we awaken to escape from our dreams.
current music: psalm 103
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| Friday, April 3rd, 2009
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4:56 pm - irreducible dualities
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Picked up Zizek's first book from 1989, The Sublime Object of ideology. He's really is all about counter-intuitive observation.. he's always taking some concept or view and turning it on its head, releasing new energy stored in old ideas. He explains that he's going to take two largely discredited theoretical frameworks - hegelian dialectics and lacanian psychoanalysis - and simultaneously revive them by aiming them at one another, and from this derive a new theory of ideology. Wicked.
"My thesis… is that the most consistent model of such an acknowledgement of antagonism is offered by Hegelian dialectics: far from being a story of its progressive overcoming, dialectics is for Hegel a systematic notation of the failure of all such attempts– ‘absolute knowledge’ denotes a subjective position which finally accepts ‘contradiction’ as an internal condition of every identity. In other words, Hegelian ‘reconciliation’ is not a ‘panlogicist’ sublation of all reality in the Concept but a final consent to the fact that the Concept is ‘not-all’ (to use this Lacanian term). In this sense we can repeat the thesis of Hegel as the first post-Marxist: he opened up the field of a certain fissure subsequently ’sutured’ by Marxism."
I'm really digging the first chapter, How Did Marx Invent the Symptom?, where he's describing what he sees as a "fundamental homology between the interpretative procedure of Marx and Freud - more precisely, between their analysis of commodity and of dreams." He uses money as an example of something that has a sublime body (existing in the symbolic order) beyond its corruptible physical form, and then claims that this form is analogous to the unconscious... interesting.
"Here we have touched a problem unsolved by Marx, that of the material character of money: not of the empirical, material stuff money is made of, but of the sublime material, of that other 'indestructible and immutable' body which persists beyond the corruption of the body physical - this other body of money is like the corpse of the Sadeian victim which endures all torments and survives with its beauty immaculate. This immaterial corporality of the 'body within the body' gives us a precise definition of the sublime object...
If, then, the 'real abstraction' has nothing to do with the level of 'reality', of the effective properties, of an object, it would be wrong for that reason to conceive of it as a 'thought-abstraction', as a process taking place in the 'interior' of the thinking subject: in relation to this 'interior', the abstraction appertaining to the act of exchange is in an. irreducible way external, decentred -- or, to quote Sohn-Rethel's concise formulation: 'The exchange abstraction is not thought, but it has the form of thought'.
Here we have one of the possible definitions of the unconscious: the form of thought whose ontological status is not that of thought, that is to say, the form of thought external to the thought itself..."
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4:51 pm
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I'll be a hurricane when I grow up
an ugly thunder
I'll be a forest fire about to flood
over an empire
I'll be an avalanche chewing its rupture
I'll be a killer whale when I grow up
I'll be a monster
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| Monday, March 30th, 2009
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10:29 am - how do we know what we desire?
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"the choice between the blue and the red pill is not really a choice between illusion and reality. of course the matrix is a machine for fictions but these are fictions which already structure our reality. if you take away from our reality the symbolic fictions which regulate it, you lose reality itself. I want a third pill. so what is the third pill. definitely not some kind of transcendental pill which enables a fake fast food religious experience, but a pill that would enable me to perceive not the reality behind the illusion but the reality in illusion itself."
- slavoj zizek, the pervert's guide to cinema
Clip from The Pervert's Guide To Cinema: Part 1
saw this film on the weekend. this guy always blows my mind. he completely goes off on lynch which I thoroughly enjoyed. psychoanalytical reading of the ridiculously violent patriarchal characters, the mystery man as the director. the recurring theme of the deadlock we reach in reality that triggers the entry to fantasy, and the deadlock we reach in the fantasy that brings us back into reality. the abyss of the depths of another person. the obscene nature of the superego. the void at the top of the stairs at the end of psycho. the emptiness of the other that we substantiate with our fantasies. solaris as the id machine. the higher density space of the forms of film themselves, below the narrative, that provides the necessary environment for the emotions the films evoke.
current mood: the green pill
current music: the strings from braid playing in reverse
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| Thursday, March 26th, 2009
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10:05 pm - fast their mind waves and long counts
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long time between suns behind—empty hunger cross the wounded sky—cold your brain slowly fading—I said by our ever living poet dead—that hospital melted into air—advance and inherit the insubstantial dead—flakes fall that were his shadow—
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9:56 pm - Our existence has serious side effects
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I found a letter it read
"Our existence has serious side effects"
Turned on, turned on the television
It's telling me the world is collapsing
I think it's coming and it comes so fast
I'm hearing whispers of an infinite yes
And I don't know why it is
Our bodies are dead, why you look so sad?
And my therapist said
"We've evolved through a series of accidents"
There's been talk of chemical imbalances
Restless sense of detachment, nausea and/or violence
I think it's coming and it comes so fast
I'm hearing whispers of an infinite yes
And I don't know why it is
I feel it coming, I think it's real and significant
I think I think I think a little too often
That's what my therapist said
We're alone in this wilderness
Left to choke on the pills and to feed on the viruses
I think it's coming and it comes so fast
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5:04 pm - resonicity
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In the coffee shop, looking at the milk foam bear face of my macchiato, I created a text message with the predictive text feature enabled and got spooked. This feature (of my old school phone without a full keyboard) predicts which letters I mean when I hit the number keys by choosing the letters that match the most probable word that could be made from them. I find myself choosing less nonstandard words even if they're longer to speed up the typing (tonight instead of 2nite, for instead of 4), confoming to the existing patterns. Occasionally I bother adding 'new' words by 'spelling' them (spellckasting), but only when there's an emotional reason to do so, a /poetic/ (magickal) reason. poetry (language alckhemy) takes conscious effort while using common (calcified, solidified) patterns is largely autonomous. And I sense that these patterns are bigger than words. They form a hierarchy of levels from morphology to discourse, from sign to cypher, up the semiotic ladder. They form this way in reflection to the way our brains form, organize, and use patterns. And the infosphere, the world of language where we interact with information, is a repository of heirarchical patterns that we draw from whenever we engage in language. There's a tendency, a gravity, to use established patterns over novel ones. But there's also a motivation, a levity, to inject novelty into our communications to increase their ability to synchronize and energize. Linguistic levity is in this sense like a pull from the future while linguistic gravity is like a pull from the past.
The more we edit, rearrange the subpatterns, poeticize, the more we stir up the matrix, disturb the hypostasis. We can influence these word patterns, these phrase forms, with our words to others, and increase the probability that they will use these forms and that they will reinforce these forms when similar forms are heard or seen around them. Burroughs figured out we can cut open reality and catalyze the influx of new word patterns with cut-ups (randomly rearranged writing, recordings, etc.). And like magickal ritual, it provides a technique for bypassing the psychic censor, the gravity that otherwise impedes us from disrupting the hypostasis of our minds, beliefs, and lives. Chaos semantics. Bloodletting the logos.
This got me thinking about the idea of resonicity (as opposed to synchronicity). It's the potential something has to resonate with something else, in terms of the synergetic transfer of informational energy. Resonicity is to potential energy as synchronicity is to kinetic energy perhaps. It's the relative communicative capability of something. And since word patterns are heirarchical, resonistic patterning can be introduced at different levels and thereby affect ontological structures at different scales. neological viruses can ride old archetypes and new maps of hyperspace can be drawn with street language.
current mood: ferrous/ferric
current music: wintersleep . oblivion
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| Thursday, February 26th, 2009
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8:19 pm - ataronchronon 222
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... , ::.::,;"".::,:;;;::::::><::::::;;;:,::."";,::.:: , ...
something to be like
consciousness is when there is
nothing to explain
current music: new order - this time of night - 4:44
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| Friday, February 6th, 2009
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12:42 pm - caveh zahedi
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In 1945, when the Nag Hammadi library was discovered in Egypt, the Gospel of Thomas was among the texts that were rediscovered. In the Gospel of Thomas, Jesus asks his apostles the question: who am I like? According to the Apocrypha, Thomas was Christ's twin brother, and he is the only apostle who guessed the answer to the question, although the answer is never revealed in the text. But the answer is clear: you are like me.
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Such revelation brings us to the question of the ego in cinema. Because the art of cinema requires the photographic reproduction of reality, Blanchot's astonishing solution to the problem is not an option for the filmmaker. In fact, the opposite strategy is required: a complex dialectic between celebrity (a quasi-inevitability) and anonymity (almost a spiritual necessity). In my own work, I have chosen to address this problem by making films about myself, and by consequently documenting the most intimate details of my private life. At the same time, I have employed one of the distinguishing elements of cinema: namely its unique relation to randomness, which one could also call Fate or Reality or God.
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In I Was Possessed By God, the strategy was more direct and almost scientific. I ingested 5 grams (an extremely large dose) of hallucinogenic mushrooms during the making of the film. This obliterated my ego, at least ostensibly and for a few hours, and allowed God to "speak directly" through me. The ego is still there I believe, but it has been put in its place and, at least for a while, is no longer running the show.
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current mood: golden afternoon
current music: 13 most beautiful...
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| Thursday, October 16th, 2008
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8:32 pm
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What's that you see?
There's all these satellites, satellites, satellites
Orbiting you and me
Just one glimpse can change a life, change a life, change a life
And you can see
Through all these satellites, satellites, satellites
Orbiting you and me
One glimpse can change a life, change a life, change a life, change it
I get so haunted, I fall in your dreams tonight
I get so haunted, I misunderstood tonight
What's that you see?
There's all the satellites, satellites, satellites
Haunting you and me
Just one glimpse can change a life, change a life, change a life
And you can see
Through all these satellites, satellites, satellites
Haunting you and me
One glimpse can change a life, change a life, change a life, change it
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| Monday, October 6th, 2008
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6:39 pm - sick
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| Wednesday, September 10th, 2008
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12:36 am - the map
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"The mute consonants represent the earth, the sibilants the sky, the vowels heaven. The mute consonants represent fire, the sibilants air, the vowels the sun… The mute consonants represent the eye, the sibilants the ear, the vowels the mind" - Aitrareya-Aranya-Upanishad, ...
hmm, like crowley's mapping between the kabbalistic tree of life and the i ching trigrams.. this looks like another possible association to add to the metadrome.. language and indian cosmology.. idea: ipa as oracle/tarot.
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12:23 am - ramachandran on synesthesia
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cool, another reference to that research about grapheme-color synesthesia I was reading about a while back... want to do more of these tests..
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More recently, Ramachandran studied the neural mechanisms of grapheme-color synesthesia, a condition in which viewing black and white letters or numbers on a page evokes the experience of seeing colors. Ramachandran (with then PhD student, Edward Hubbard) showed that some synesthetes (those who experience synesthesia) were better able to detect "embedded figures" composed of one letter or number (for example a triangle composed of 2s) on a background of another number (for example 5s). This is a difficult task for people who do not experience synesthesia. However, some synesthetes report that the colors they see help them to find and identify the embedded shape. Their performance on behavioral tasks show that some synesthetes are better at this task than non-synesthetes.
Based on his previous work on phantom limbs, Ramachandran suggested that synesthesia may arise from a similar cross-activation between brain regions. However, rather than being within a single sensory stream, this form of cross-activation would occur between sensory streams, and is thought to be due to genetic differences, rather than neural re-organization. In fMRI experiments, increased activity in a color selective region (hV4) was found in synesthetes compared to non-synesthetes when they viewed letters and numbers that evoked synesthetic colors, compared with symbols that did not.
via jane
current mood: throat chakra
current music: beck - chemtrails
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| Monday, September 1st, 2008
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9:24 pm - my favourite time of year
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http://www.viff.org/home.html
FLicKeR (Canada, 75 min.) Beat Generation artist Brion Gysin invented the dream machine: a flickering device capable of having a hallucinatory effect on viewers. Journeying into the art world surrounding Gysin, director Nik Sheehan provokes a discussion about art, consciousness and the role of the artist.
Mock Up on Mu (USA, 110 min.) In 2019, L. Ron Hubbard has conquered and renamed the moon (Mu). Meanwhile on earth, Marjorie Cameron and Jack Parsons fight the power. With a combination of found footage, real-life heroes and weirdoes, and various other stuff, subversive shit-disturber Craig Baldwin (Spectres of the Spectrum, VIFF 99) has fashioned a “collage-narrative” that defies categorization.
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current mood: pulsating silhouette
current music: the smiths - girlfriend in a coma
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| Saturday, August 23rd, 2008
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9:50 pm - I am trapped in this body and can't get out
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Everyone
Everyone around here
Everyone is so near
It's holding on
Everyone
Everyone is so near
Everyone has got the fear
It's holding on
You are not to blame for
Bittersweet distractor
Dare not speak its name
Dedicated to all you
all human beings
Because we separate like
ripples on a blank shore
(in rainbows)
Reckoner
A jigsaw falling into place
So there is nothing to explain
You eye each other as you pass
She looks back and you look back
Not just once
and not just twice
Wish away your nightmare
Wish away the nightmare
You got the light you can feel it on your back
A light you can feel it on your back
Your jigsaw falling into place
current music: you can taste it but it will not form
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| Tuesday, July 8th, 2008
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3:38 pm - the lizard path
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"Do not abide in the extremity of the void, but illumine the non-being in the being. It is neither out of the void nor out of being. Void and being are not conceived of as two. This is called the Middle Way."
--Niu-t'ou Fa-yung, of the Madhyamika ("Middle Way"), or Shunyavada ("Voidist") School of Buddhism (594-657 CE); found in Chang Chung-yuan's Original Teachings of Ch'an Buddhism, Vintage Books, New York [circa 1971], pp. 7 & 24.
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current music: dead-void heretic | hollow mirror
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| Sunday, June 15th, 2008
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2:52 pm
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We were talking - about the space between us all
And the people - who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion
Never glimpse the truth - then it's far too late when they pass away
We were talking - about the love we all could share
When we find it - to try our best to hold it there - with our love
With our love we could save the world - if they only knew
Try to realize it's all within yourself - no-one else can make you change
And to see you're really only very small
And life flows on within you and without you.
We were talking - about the love that's gone so cold
And the people who gain the world and lose their soul
They don't know, they can't see - are you one of them?
When you've seen beyond yourself
Then you may find peace of mind is waiting there
And the time will come when you see we're all one
And life flows on within you and without you.
current music: fleet foxes | ragged wood / cloudland canyon | white woman
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| Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
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3:07 pm - synchrosection
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strangely dense synchronode.. the crystal antlers ep - cover is one of my favorite paintings by one of my favorite painters (went to the peggy guggenheim last year to see it and then pere lachaise to visit ernst's grave), as well as an almost comical intersection of all the music and art trends I've been tracking for the last few years, like some kind of weird list - lofi-shoegaze-psych-rock with themes of owls, deers, crystals, eyes (the evolving underground art demigod pantheon).. a song called "parting song for the torn sky" - my new tattoo being hexagram 43, kuai - "parting" and my old one hexagram 23, bo - "stripping/tearing".. another called "arcturus" - our suspected source of the qac transmission in analogy to leary/wilson's sirius.. they sound pretty cool too.. no age meets m83 style dense noisiness, mgmt/panda bear neo tribal psych..
current mood: attirement of the bride
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| Wednesday, June 4th, 2008
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12:31 pm - anosognosia
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saw will wright talk about building entertainment franchises and imaginary worlds.. he referenced the three stigmata of palmer eldritch, talked about walt disney's crazy unfinished plans for disney world, showed a funny clip of david lynch talking about experiencing a movie over a telephone.
I was then explaining to someone the difference between CanD and ChewZ.. which lead to a web search.. where I found this interesting site:
http://www.christianhubert.com/writings/index.htm
"You can never know what is enough unless you know what is more than enough." William Blake, "Proverbs of Hell."
consensual hallucination, phase space, screen memories, schismogenesis, heterotopia.. your typical hypertext synchronmaschine.
My primary interest is in the constellation of ideas and technologies, in the dense web of interlinkages between terms, in resonances between ideas from different fields. Hypertext is the writing form which best approximates this field, and when hypertext meets the internet, in the World-Wide-Web, for example, this new discursive technology promises to symbolise the embodiment of our new thought-worlds the way the clock, the book, the railway, or other prime artifacts of Western technology operated upon their own time, coevolving in feedback with the technical and social matrices that gave rise to them.
current mood: anthropic principle
current music: subtle | exitingARM
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| Sunday, June 1st, 2008
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7:13 pm
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Time will destroy you like a Mexican god.
current mood: ice cave
current music: human bell
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| Monday, May 19th, 2008
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4:40 pm - mysterium tremendum
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Numinous is a Latin term coined by German theologian Rudolf Otto to describe that which is wholly other. The numinous is the mysterium tremendum et fascinans that leads in different cases to belief in deities, the supernatural, the sacred, the holy, and the transcendent.
The word was used by Otto in his book Das Heilige (1917; translated as The Idea of the Holy, 1923). Etymologically, it comes from the Latin word numen, which originally and literally meant "nodding", but was associated with meanings of "command" or "divine majesty". Otto formed the word numinous from numen in a manner analogous to the derivation of ominous from omen.
current mood: land of laughs
current music: js bach - prelude in c minor
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| Sunday, May 11th, 2008
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2:45 am - chiastic slide
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J.C. Lavatar in the 18th century said it was the shadow of the face, not the face itself that was the soul’s true reflection; the ancient Egyptians held that there are nine parts to the human personality: Ren (the name), Seknem (the form in heaven), Saho (the spiritual body), Khu (the ethereal casing of the physical body), Khat (the physical body), Ka (the doppelganger of the body which empowers the shadow), Ab (the heart), Ba (the soul in the Ka), and Khaibit (the shadow of the physical body enlivened by the Ka);
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If there exists the means by which consciousness can overcome the limitations of the inertial mass of the physical body and enter “higher dimensions” than the mind, it must also be possible to enter the “lower dimensions,” such as the second dimension of spatiality (a dimensional realm obvious to all) and become a living shadow. This was one of the beliefs of the Ancient Egyptians, and so should be the content of an objective experiment that could test such a hypothesis.
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| Friday, May 9th, 2008
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12:31 am - folie à deux
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Folie à deux (literally, "a madness shared by two") is a rare psychiatric syndrome in which a symptom of psychosis (particularly a paranoid or delusional belief) is transmitted from one individual to another. The same syndrome shared by more than two people may be called folie à trois, folie à quatre, folie à famille or even folie à plusieurs (madness of many).
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Folie à deux and its more populous cousins are in many ways a psychiatric curiosity. The current Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders states that a person cannot be diagnosed as being delusional if the belief in question is one "ordinarily accepted by other members of the person's culture or subculture" (see entry for delusion). It is not clear at what point a belief considered to be delusional escapes from the folie à... diagnostic category and becomes legitimate because of the number of people holding it. When a large number of people may come to believe obviously false and potentially distressing things based purely on hearsay, these beliefs are not considered to be clinical delusions by the psychiatric profession and are labelled instead as mass hysteria.
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There have been reports that a similar phenomenon to folie à deux had been induced by the military incapacitating agent BZ in the late 60s, and most recently again by anthropologists in the South American rainforest consuming the hallucinogen ayahuasca.
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